loud whispers of ice

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The outsides are still rigid and rough,
I dream of drowning in the lakes.
Watching all of the city was enough,
To make me want to go down till it breaks.

Voids of light seem to avoid me,
Or I'm just running from the best.
Not proud to admit the blame's on me,
Too scared to know if I failed the test.

This phase isn't a phase anymore;
Rather stare at a stone than my face.
It's more than just anything I've worn,
Want to rip my skin yet heal with pace.

Doses of insecurity fed by society;
I'm high but I'm the one to blame.
For the differences and all the variety,
I've built up in myself in pieces of shame.

Everyone thought they kept me warm,
But my ice heart didn't melt even an inch.
Still, feel like running away after the storm,
But I'm too cold to move or even flinch.

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